I’d love to take my own advice
re-evaluate my life throw away the lies
forget all the whos whats and whys
when did I get off track and lose myself
endlessly diving in deeper and deeper
disregard that from here the climb becomes steeper
rockier, shakier, instability grows
within the depths of me nobody knows
men don’t realize who women really are
no friend knows every solitary scar
every mistake intertwined with regret
every attempt with satisfaction not met
when does it get easier when do I know
that gradually complexities fade before tomorrow
that issues simplify and then die out
yet to continue on how do I know
assuring myself that its common these feelings
and turmoil is not as rare as I thought so
I’d love to follow my heart
and yet where does it belong
has every step I’ve made since day one been wrong
yet these questions are unanswerable and so its easy to see
its wasteful to wonder why all this is happening to me
pointless to grieve and miss days already gone
better to keep moving as life drones on.
Turmoil
