The lingering past of dreadfulness
Haunts me to my core of gloom
All alone in my memories and images
Despite resting in this crowded room

Although the events have gone and melted
My heart beats somewhere else
Pounding and whipping with panic attacks
While my body creeps, creeps in stealth

Now I ponder about my mental health.

When the daylight of today will ensue
Forgiveness will bring me some truth.
But somehow my mind is taken back in
Again, all things past are within
Thoughts come flying at me

I wish it was a sailing kite
But it flashes like lightning and I’m blinded
To the shadows that I’m bound to, I’m winded
Should I ask and if so who?
Will grant my wits some mercy
And the curses will no longer dictate to me

Receiving blow after blow after blow
And to where do these miseries flow?

If I could have even a minute of silence
The menacing screams hidden behind the curtain
I know I could be grateful
And of myself I could once again be certain

But I’m not at home anymore
Can’t seem to find that place I’m in
So I wait and I wait and I wait
For my new chapter of life to begin.