Trapped in the dream of your embrace
Lost to the pitfalls of time and space
If I could be your angel in this life
And have you for myself
If I could be everything you’d like a girl to be
Could it be that you could love me
If I could sleep and dream of something new
Always the day awakens me to you
Once again I yearn for your love
Once again I’m trapped
Show me a path to ignorance
And somehow I can adapt
Must I endure this suffering
Under the miserable moon
Is it possible one day
My heartache is my eventual ruin
I fall asleep and dream your eyes
And voice and arms and then I rise
And I know my heart is full of lies
Full of secrets and terror and dread
I wish I could look forward to you instead
Could you protect me from this very life
And smile into my overwhelmed soul
Or am I just some lonely girl
Wandering alone in this cold world
Lost in the depth of my heart and soul
Lost in an ocean sweeping me to and fro
Drowning among waves and nowhere to go
My heart a swimming sea of darkness and pain
My face in the mirror looks back with disdain
I long for the life of a happy girl
And one without confusion and strife
I want much, much more than what I
Have right now in my life
I hate myself
And yet respect my heart
This journey takes me through hell
By myself and beside my shadow
With a story my tears could tell
If I could be seen through until the end
And avoid these painful deaths
I’d cut myself to see the blood
To know I’ve lived my best
To die in honesty and innocence
I’d cut my only wings
Trapped in a cage with nowhere to fly
While my voice so mournfully sings
The things I want I cannot have
Whom I want will never come
I’m frozen in a lake of ice
And still my heart will not numb
It tears at itself and groans and sighs
And asks me to say my final goodbyes
Memories shake me to my inner core
And all that I loved was lies.